Its Christmas eve, 24th of December of the year
at this moment ..usually ppl will start to recall wat had happen the whole year

so do i, actually 23rd..just a few hours back.. i happen to anger someone..
or i shudnt use the word anger...simply just made her become unstable emotion
due to the existence of this blog...

well.. i do not wat word i shud be spilling out onto this post..because
i have tons of emotion i been through just in 12 hours.. but to be honest ..
this is the first time i feel its nice...

not being a bias or wat... i been through a rough day with hard smile in lot events..
but usually it somehow something i would not try again.. because even it come with laughter .. i will rather nvr try again

but today, diff.. i wan to spill myself with emotion.. to feel that u are at the top of the world.. but the other second u are so deep ur voice cant reach others... even though obviously making it often is not a good action after all ..i do not think i can handle it =)

life is so much fun if its always like today, .. a great love.. a hand to hold on.. a shoulder to lean on.. a joke to laugh on.. an anger to tear on..a chatter that nvr end.. and last but not least.. a great companion that will nvr bored of u and u wont bored of her ..because the existence of emotion...

i feel so lively, even though its not a perfect night.. or a perfect occasion.. but like wat wise said..nothing is perfect..because we are imperfect.. we expect better in future..and every achievement... it bring joy

i hope we step ahead every single moment, side by side.. and achieve what we dream of =)
in the coming future ....

MERRY CHRISTMAS AND HAPPY NEW YEAR...

p/s : especially u, i am glad to through end of this year.. with ur smile... =)

sometimes i will get very puzzle with ppl thought of me

its like when ppl acting and talk like u are a part of them but at a point u fully believe
and also accepted this fact...

they could just walk off... it might not be an action, simply just express a thought to u
or simply just a phrase ..is enough to doubt the entire thing from beginnning to the end

wat is all this? it isnt exactly real but not fake as well,.. because there isnt any prove what is fake and wat isnt..

if such thing existed/...will i have the right ? the courage to feel it? to be emotional of it...

why does another person love to use so minor action to bring such a big impact.. i am not fragile, i simply just too vulnerable...

i am a pro in keeping myself under control, but i am weak in letting ppl making me out of control...

sometimes, i rather just feeeel... no words, no action, blinded as well...

at least, u wont be expecting that much...

i had nothing at all~

sometimes i also need to be pamper...

why cant someone just let me release..

why whenever its obviously i wan u to cheer u up..

u not gonna do it??

now..here i am

smoking again... why is it ciggarette became my dearest

when i already had u ~~~

Dissapointed

i dislike ppl saying they are dissapointed to me

I ALREADY DID MY BEST!!!

WAT U ALL WAN FROM ME!!

"i am dissapointed of u "

IT IS A SENTENCE ENOUGH TO LET ME HAVE A CHEST PAIN

DO U KNOW HOW HURT IT IS??

U ARE DIGGING ALL MY PAST!! ALL MY SADNESS!!

U MAKE ME THIS BIG MAN WANTED TO CRY SO MUCH~~~

plz...its a harsh word~~~

arh!!!~~~~

Arrogant me~

how long since i ever have a feeling of unable to resolve wat i really wanted
its been long long long since i can remember..

like wise says , wat u gain is same with wat u lost , everything comes in a round, whether clockwise
or anti-clockwise, sweet first pain later, or even pain first sweet later.. every sacrifice u did come with the same amount of gain u get~ and every benefit u got is no different with how much u are going to pay for it..

actually, i expected something is gonna happen and thing will become very rough.. but it just a lack of readyness to prepare for it.. new stuff, new experience, problem thats nvr been touch in ur life time.. it do not make me curious anymore, it make me fear them, avoid them, or even forget about it...

why and how had it been that way? i would like to know..but its not a matter of that.. its a matter of every problems need a solution, and a solution of problems nvr gonna be easy to be found out~

so wat u do? skip it or come back to it later~
hmmm.. ppl thinks that i shud concentrate on the very first problem that occur
but now..i would like to be a bit arrogant... and doing stuff ppl usually do in exam hall

skip and come back later~~

Be Strong

i would say i have a shock last night..
maybe i am not prepared for this...
eventhough i could understand why she is acting like that
she been through too much.. too much that even myself couldnt step into her world
her shoes..to understand her life..

i do not have the right to spill her with all the wisdom words
because even myself wasnt in the position to say so..
me too have a tradegy of past that i need to overcome..
life is indeed tough.. some ppl suffer less, some people suffer more
but is a sure thing everyone do suffer from their corner of their world..

but it have been more clearer that i shud overcome watever i had been through
so i could throw it aside and help the one i love to step back to a better self
and gain happiness..

i love u .. plz dun hurt urself..as it hurt it real back to me...

A Brilliant conversation

An Atheist Professor of Philosophy was speaking to his Class on the Problem Science has With GOD, the ALMIGHTY. He asked one of his New Christian Students to stand and . . .

Professor: You are a Christian, aren't you, son?
Student: Yes, sir.
Professor: So, you believe in GOD?
Student: Absolutely, sir.
Professor: Is GOD Good?
Student: Sure.
Professor: Is GOD ALL - POWERFUL?
Student: Yes.
Professor: My Brother died of Cancer even though he prayed to GOD to heal him. Most of us would attempt to help others who are ill. But GOD didn't. How is this GOD good then? Hmm?

(Student was silent)

Professor: You can't answer, can you? Let's start again, Young Fella. Is GOD Good?
Student: Yes.
Professor: Is Satan good?
Student: No.
Professor: Where does Satan come from?
Student: From . . . GOD . . .
Professor: That's right. Tell me son, is there evil in this World?
Student: Yes.
Professor: Evil is everywhere, isn't it? And GOD did make everything. Correct?
Student: Yes.
Professor: So who created evil?

(Student did not answer)

Professor: Is there Sickness? Immorality? Hatred? Ugliness? All these terrible things exist in the World, don't they?
Student: Yes, sir.
Professor: So, who Created them?

(Student ha d no answer)

Professor: Science says you have 5 Senses you use to Identify and Observe the World around you. Tell me, son . . . Have you ever Seen GOD?
Student: No, sir.
Professor: Tell us if you have ever Heard your GOD?
Student: No, sir.
Professor: Have you ever Felt your GOD, Tasted your GOD, Smelt your GOD? Have you ever had any Sensory Perception of GOD for that matter?
Student: No, sir. I'm afraid I haven't.
Professor: Yet you still Believe in HIM?
Student: Yes.
Professor: According to Empirical, Testable, Demonstrable Protocol, Science says your GOD doesn't exist. What do you say to that, son?
Student: Nothing. I only have my Faith.
Professor: Yes, Faith. And that is the Problem Science has.

Student: Professor, is there such a thing as Heat?
Professor: Yes.
Student: And is there such a thing as Cold?
Professor: Yes.
Student: No, sir. There isn't..

(The Lecture Theatre became very quiet with this turn of events)

Student : Sir, you can have Lots of Heat, even More Heat, Superheat, Mega Heat, White Heat,
a Little Heat or No Heat.
But we don't have anything called Cold.
We can hit 458 Degrees below Zero which is No Heat, but we can't go any further after that.
There is no such thing as Cold.
Cold is only a Word we use to describe the Absence of Heat.
We cannot Measure Cold.
Heat is Energy.
Cold is Not the Opposite of Heat, sir, just the Absence of it.

(There was Pin-Drop Silence in the Lecture Theatre)

Student : What about Darkness, Professor? Is there such a thing as Darkness?
Professor : Yes. What is Night if there isn't Darkness?
Student : You're wrong again, sir. Darkness is the Absence of Something
You can have Low Light, Normal Light, Bright Light, Flashing Light . . . But if you have No Light constantly, you have nothing and its called Darkness, isn't it? In reality, Darkness isn't. If it is, were you would be able to make Darkness Darker, wouldn't you?
Professor : So what is the point you are making, Young Man ?
Student : Sir, my point is your Philosophical Premise is flawed.
Professor : Flawed ? Can you explain how?
Student : Sir, you are working on the Premise of Duality. You argue there is Life and then there is Death, a Good GOD and a Bad GOD. You are viewing the Concept of GOD as something finite, something we can measure. Sir, Science can't even explain a Thought. It uses Electricity and Magnetism, but has never seen, much less fully understood either one. To view Death as the Opposite of Life is to be ignorant of the fact that Death cannot exist as a Substantive Thing.
Death is Not the Opposite of Life: just the Absence of it
Now tell me, Professor, do you teach your Students that they evolved from a Monkey?
Professor : If you are referring to the Natural Evolutionary Process, yes, of course, I do.
Student : Have you ever observed Evolution with your own eyes, sir?

(The Professor shook his head with a Smile, beginning to realize where the Argument was going)

Student : Since no one has ever observed the Process of Evolution at work and Cannot even prove that this Process is an On-Going Endeavor,
Are you not teaching your Opinion, sir?
Are you not a Scientist but a Preacher?
(The Class was in Uproar)

Student : Is there anyone in the Class who has ever seen the Professor's Brain?

(The Class broke out into Laughter)

Student : Is there anyone here who has ever heard the Professor's Brain, Felt it, touched or Smelt it? . . .
No one appears to have done so.
So, according to the Established Rules of Empirical, Stable, Demonstrable Protocol, Science says that You have No Brain, sir. With all due respect, sir, how do we then Trust your Lectures, sir?

(The Room was Silent. The Professor stared at the Student, his face unfathomable)

Professor : I guess you'll have to take them on Faith, son.
Student : That is it sir . . . Exactly !
The Link between Man & GOD is FAITH.
That is all that Keeps Things Alive and Moving.


NB:

I believe you have enjoyed the Conversation . . . and if so .. .
You'll probably want your Friends / Colleagues to enjoy the same . . . won't you?
Forward them to Increase their Knowledge . . . or FAITH.
That student was Albert Einstein.